Tidy bedroom in progress!
Here's today's microaction
1. Finish Bedroom
2. Tidy Up Front Garden
3. 30 Min flexibility routine
Well today was definitely 'one of those days!' It started early with wishing my son a happy birthday. I posted my updates to the blog etc complete my morning habit stack then found myself sitting in front of the telly watching absolute rubbish for hours. My daughter went back to school today so it was my perfect opportunity to get things done and instead I did the complete opposite.
The problem is i'm struggling with empty nest syndrome. i was a very hands on mum with my son he was always busy dancing, acting playing sports we spent a lot of time together in the car, a lot of time talking and laughing together then at 16 he went to musical theatre college in London and whilst he was many miles away he still needed me to some degree and constantly phoned with excitement. Now three years on the excitement has become his norm, he has a girlfriend and even less need for me. Don't get me wrong this isn't so much about what hes doing I love his girlfriend and proud that he has become so independent. 'But what about me!'
My role is disapearing, my daughters almost 14 and she already copes fine without my advice so what do I do now. i was fortunate enough to have been able to have been a stay at home mum and although I ran my own business it really had to fit in around my families needs Due to family illness I have been unable to work for the past couple of years ans now I find myself empty and on a day like yesterday almost feeling resentful of everyone else's success whilst i wallow in 'But what about me!.
So why am I talking about this well. The end result for me of ' What about me' thinking is that it triggers in me an instinctive impulse to make myself feel better with food, which of course doesn't really get me the results I want.
Thanks to this 100 day challenge I was able to curtail my eating after a slice of birthday cake and a few sweets which is a vast improvement on the past. It was a tough few hours followed by a couple of emotional episodes during the day. Needless to say I wasn't very successful with my microactions but I am pleased to say the day ended better than it started. I had a to spend an hour in the car whilst my daughter played hockey and I used the time to seriously reflect on how I was going to change things and I have made the decision to return to work in the New Year. it's time for me to spend a little time on me. my family are all safe, they will always be cared for but I need to be a good example for them of how life is not over just because your in your 50's.